Sunday, January 2, 2011

The Longest Year

It has begun, the longest year, or half year, maybe, hopefully.
Today P "relocated" to Fort Worth, TX to live with his parents for the next 6 months to a year. He recently accepted a position at a new company based out of Dallas, and he needs to go through training, and when he is finished, he will be opening up a new branch of the company. The problem is Fort Worth is 5 hours away from here, and P is there, I am here. We decided to do this for several reasons. Reason one, P and I believe in keeping our commitments, and I made a commitment to finish teaching until May, and I would not feel right breaking my contract. Reason two, financially this is going to be really great for us. P has not had a "normal" job for about 9 months, so this will really help us make headway into our financial goals.
I know we are doing this for us, to help us cement our foundation for our future, and I know we are doing this for P. He had the option of opening the branch straight away, and just learning as he went, but he has never had the opportunity to be trained by someone this way, and it is something that will hopefully pay off in the long run. But......
I will just come out and say it, this sucks.
We dated long distance while I was in grad school, except I was up there, and he was down here. And, of all the husbands I have had, he is my favorite one by far (just kidding, there has only been one).
It is hard already. The day has been filled with goodbye's, tears, and an emptiness in the pit of my stomach. Walking around here, I look for his things, but so many of them are gone. The closet looks so empty because he took most of his clothes, his shoes are not by the door, his wallet is not on the counter, and most importantly he is not here on the couch watching Sunday night football with me.
I will say it again, this sucks.
I know so many marriages go through harder things than this. Military wives can go years without seeing their husbands, who are fighting in harms way on another continent. Mine is a few hours away living with his parents, but its still so hard.


Anonymous said...

oh man, i wish i had the right words to say to make you feel better - I don't. But I do know that you are strong enough to get through this.

On a whole other note, were you watching the Seahawks? Amazing, they finally won!!

Brooke said...

*big hugs*

Anonymous said...

Your my Queen and a strong one!

Serendipity said...

It sounds like it's going to be hard, but its worth it in the long run. And if you ever need to vent, you know we are here for you!