I have started my taper this week. My mileage has dropped off quite a bit, and to be perfectly honest, it freaks me out. I have gotten so used to higher mileage that doing so few miles is actually really weird. I didn't even run today, and I miss it. In fact, I have not even worked out today. I have foam rolled, stretched, and rested. My legs feel more fresh than they have in weeks, and I am actually aching to move.
I am running a 1/2 this weekend, and I think I am beyond ready physically. The part that is going to be the hardest is the mental battle, which is something I have always dealt with. I grew up running track and cross country, and even won 3rd place in state one year, but I quit doing track because I could not handle the nerves that came at the starting line. Every single time that I toe the line in a race, no matter if it is a marathon or a 5K, that same feeling creeps back in, and the doubt monster creeps in. I have a lot of goals for this race, but the number one goal is to run and gain confidence. I have done this distance a hundred times, and I know I could reach my time goal on a training run, but I need to prove to myself that I can do it during a race.
I am aiming for a sub 2 hour race. That's actually a lie. I really want to run this race in 1:50 or less. As I said before, I know that I am physically capable, but now I just need to whip my mind into shape.